I'm sorry you're struggling with that. Have you thought about maybe going to JOINT counseling, either MC or even a sex therapist? I think you BOTH probably have issues to work thru, and having a neutral third party might help you safely explore those areas?
Guilt is a powerful mood-killer; I suspect your H still has a lot on his mind, and it's affecting his performance. And unfortunately, the more you make of it -- or even if he's just sensing your disappointment -- the more the pressure is going to build on him.
