Look, you have been through a wild emotional swing recently. Plus you have some indication that she is still in it. All I have right now is indifference. If I can keep going, you can.
I've been through indifference. Indignance. Hostility. Anger. Resentment. She has thrown it all at me.
It was only just over a week ago that she was yelling that she should have never married me across the front yard (hi neighbors). I have heard how she has "never" been in love with me. Watched her flirt with other guys at friend's parties. Seen her suck down wiskey with other men minutes after I asked her not to. Heard her tell me that her "happiness is out there with someone else" ON our 10th wedding anniversary. Sat there while she went to the bar in a minidress without a ring until 3am. Saw her throw up in my car (son in backseat) while driving her home from a party where she drank too much. Read facebook posts by another man referencing how she needed to be spanked. Listened while she told me that her GF is more important to her and she wants to "kick me to the curb." I've been called selfish and 'making everything about me' after working over 50 hours per week to provide everything we own, helped her start a business, and lived in a state that I never wanted to be in for the past 10 years. And I've dreaded being called controlling and manipulating if I decided to say a word about any of it.
You're right though. There is an indication that she is still in it. I need to remember that...and continue to focus on myself. Get a life. And let it play out as it will.
Me: 35 W: 31 S:9 M: 10 years Together 13 MySitch - Ups & Downs She moved out the day before Thanksgiving 2009, over 13 months post-bomb.
