Know what made it a little easier for me? I stoopped wondering why I did things (loving h, marrying him cuz most would have run screaming) and just accepted that I did and do. Then I didn't feel so stupid. It is what it is.
Remember my H went through the anger with S too? It is part of it for them I think. It really isn't just us, it is their whole life the question, blame, dont' want sometimes. Then the next day, they want parts of it but not others. Then back.
I know the anger at S, and even the ignoring of him, has really been MY hardest obstacle to get past. There are days I simply want to club him for changing as a father. Then days I just want to tell him to go. Days I want to force him to see all of the pain he is causing S.
I just keep S and I busy and keep talking to him and letting him talk to me. It seems to help. I am a much better mom now than I was. And I was pretty good before. LOL
Have a great weekend.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
