Got an email from the X yesterday, whoaaaaa!

[dday101798]

When you say did wonders, what actually do you mean. Havent read your sitch so guess I better do that.

Well, as hard as I tried and said I had accepted and forgiven, my anger and frustration for XW tearing our family to shreds was still there, lurking and waiting for a vulnerable moment to rear it's ugly head and break me down. No matter what I tried, I was merely lieing to myself.

XW had brushed on regreting what she was doing 6 months before the D. But it was the recent post D statements of regret and remorse that set that anger free. Don't ask me how or why, I don't know yet, but it's gone, and now I can look at the whole thing and even though are still issues, I can affirmatively say with confidence now, it is what it is, she got what she thought she wanted, the issues of the past lay there, in the past. All I can look forward to now is as Kerry said, the present and future and make the best of it as it certainly isn't what I envisioned, but sometimes as they say, the best laid plans don't come to frutition. And who knows, a ways down the road, maybe there is a chance for us, but a new us, and if not, oh well, through the thick and thin of it all, past the way it ended, we had a good run at things.

So in summary, and maybe to explain why it did wonders, one word:

closure.