Anyway, you seem to be sending W very mixed messages. A month ago, you want to renew your vows quickly, two weeks ago, you decide you're separated and share this news with others, now she goes away and you don't want her to act separated? It is very confusing...
Try to detach and take advantage of the space :-)
You’re confused........... No word from wife yet but oh well... I leave in the morning...I helped son cook his first meal tonight...he did a great job. Another first with son. Well I am still reading “the book” and I found out I am in my sexual prime….that right…me….I am reading some very interesting concepts…now only if I can put them to practice. Son gave me an eye opener today. I mentioned again how wife has not called me and he said “Heck she is on vacation”…..my problem of taking things too personal...
Later Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
well I am mostly packed. I need to take son to school in the morning and then I will be on my way. This time tomorrow I will be in Oregon. I will call home when I arrive just let W know I made it.I probably should not call so much while I am gone though right? detaching.... Night Doc
P.S I am NOT going to contact the OM...IT's nice to know I could if I wanted to but there is no need...I do kind of hope wife did call him to let him know I was going to be in the area though. just to keep him wondering...........
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
My son is off to school, I vacuumed the pool (92 today) so when he gets home hopefully W will go swimming with him. I'm packing the lap top so the next time you all hear from me I will be in Oregon. No calls from W yet……
Bye Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Wife finely did call. She had no reception. We talked. She sounded happy. I need you guys... I am home sick already. I know I need to grow up……My buddy is really excited that I am coming up to see him. I am in Oregon right now and will be there tomorrow(washington)….but I am ready to go home. don’ t worry the room is paid for so I can not turn back now…
Oh Ya.. OT I drove 2 mile from home before I realized I forgot “the book” So I went back home and got it………..
Later Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Doc, I recently had a whole day, completely by myself & away from home, that I spent burying my head in self-help books (looking at a career change). It was hard to get started, but once I got into it - it was WONDERFUL.
It can so much more productive and rewarding, when you can distance yourself a bitfrom the day-to-day drama and distractions. You have an opportunity here - like so many other things, it all depends on what attitude YOU bring to it!
Thread #10 22 year M, MLC, Piecing since 1/07 Goal: Live with confidence & enthusiasm!
Thanks Rob & Saffie. Well I found out last night there is a train close by. Still slept pretty good. My buddy called several times last night he still can't beleive I am comming to see him.He wanted me to come up last night but after driving 8 hours I needed a rest.(Temp is 102 here) Well about 6 more hours of driving and I will be there. I don't think I will have internet there so I will be back here on sunday.Well I better get moving br back as soon as I can,Too tired to do any reading last night. Bye Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
My buddy is not home from work yet but I am sitting on his porch drinking a ice cold beer..(hi jacking someones wireless) I will not log in while anybody is around and will for sure update ya all on sunday night. I did call home and wife seems Happy. I wonder if some "talk" happened with her cousin durring their camp out.. Oh well just livin in the moment right now be back soon Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
My buddy and his wife needed to go to a memorial for his friend’s grandmother. Its 91 degrees here in Washington...must have brought the Calif. weather with me. (Looked back at my home town and it's only 67) Did a little too much drinking last night. My buddy invited a bunch of his friends over to meet Me. (No women)...I told him a little about what is going on and he does not understand how I can live like that.I Did not tell him about the affair BUT... he did ask if she was cheating on me...I did n ot anser the questions and just said some things happened and I really don't want to talk about it. He wanted me to stay at his place this week but I told him I needed some alone time. He has a cement pouring business and work is a little slow now and he told me if I wanted to move up here I would have a job when he could give me work. I told him thanks but I am trying to work things out. He then told me he was not going to let me leave without taking some money. I told him I am doing ok money wise right now I got a good package from work. We talked about the possibility of me losing my house and stuff. It felt good talking to someone but I was still holding stuff back. I know you all lived though this stuff but I know if I told him about the affair he would say dump her and get out. I did e-mail wife and let her know I was here and having a good time but she did not reply. I am holding back calling. Would like to call my son but I know if I did and not call her it would send the wrong message. Now that I am here the urge to contact the OM has faded. Call me strange but I like having the knowledge and power to do something sometimes and not use it but know I could if I wanted too. Well staying here one more night and will probably be drinking AGIAN... that is what my buddy does work and drink beer...
My H.S for today....
Someone doesn't necessarily like what you're doing, but you aren't clear about the source of the problem. The more you dig, the more complicated and convoluted the whole situation becomes. You are ready to throw your hands up in the air in frustration and let the winds of change carry you where they will. And that's what you would do if you didn't have any obligations. Other people are depending on you so you cannot run out and leave them in a lurch
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
