What Attracts a Man to a Woman?

[june72]

OK, yes, I've gained about 50 lbs since the kids. First it was undiagnosed hypothyroidism for over a year (I knew it but the doc's were not too bright at the time) 20 lbs piled on. Then pregnant and then I maintained my weight but had a rough time losing it. This past year of the "bomb", working from home with horrible deadlines (think up till 2 am on some nights) and a toddler who is constantly sick every month and up pretty much every single night (yes, I mean every single night). Acually, many doc's are now involved with my son- it's complicated. Anyhow, in one year another 25 lbs piled on.

So of course, I am loving the gym and get disappointed if I can't go every night but I still need to really get kicking with the Weight Watchers. No, I was always super skinny and active. These few years with my health issues (heart trouble then the thyroid, then ankle problems- trouble walking) and then horrible times with my kids (oldest constant croup nighttime hell). It's really taken a toll on me. My quality of life has been very bad. I've envied the stay at home mom's with no job and kids that actually slept through the night and were not sick all the time.

Hubby was always obsessed with my weight. Ticked off I was in the 130's then angry I hit the 140's. Mean comments,etc. I admit I totally have a complex now. He swears he has changed now that weight is no longer an issue but he really does not show that to me. I hate it when gets impressed that a woman had kids and stayed thin. It's totally an insult to me.

He gets annoyed. "When are you ever going to drop it about the weight issue, you know I don't care anymore". Well, after ten years of comments on his end...

Just were I am coming from. I've been close to a WAW, now the LBS (hubby still in house), and again feel like I could be a WAW some days.