After the 3 e-mails from above. W sent me another informing me that it was D5's curriculum night for kindergarten. I went. W and D5 were there. I didn't say much to W. She asked me a few pleasent questions like "How are you" etc. I was very short with my responses, i.e. "Fine. Thank you."
It didn't feel right. I wanted to ask "How was your day?", but didn't. I felt I was being very rude. She complimented me to D5's teacher: "She is very good at math. Tristan has spent a lot of time teaching her." I simply smiled. The whole night was very awkward. We spent much of it next to each other in silence.
I do care about her and want to know how she is doing, but I shouldn't ask her because that would be persuing and bad for the marriage. This whole thing is so very confusing to me. I don't think I am doing it right. Like she says, I am not being myself.
I did a little housekeeping when I got home and have spent some time reading "No more Mr. Niceguy." I do enjoy the time alone. It's peaceful. However, that doesn't mean I don't miss my family.
