I made my points, here are the main ones: •Our first time swinging (Hell night) •Pain of swinging outweighs benefits •H’s cheating threat from summer •My feeling like a free hooker •Accusations of “c**kblocking” •Status of profiles (H stated that his single male profile is still up, and our couple profiles are still out there but blank) •Stated how my feelings/thoughts are discarded or minimized •Recommendation from IC of NO medication needed •H’s anger issues
H’s main points: •Desire for more social interaction •Treatment of my “anxiety” issues •Desire to see me as more confident and a full partner •Swinging is not a deal-breaker if we can get things back on track •H’s attempts at constructive criticism of me
We go back a week from Tuesday, and we’re supposed to think about what kind of goals we want to achieve. The MC seemed nice enough. He thought there was a possibility to put things back together and we would have a better feel of the direction we want to go in after 2 or 3 months. He did note that I seemed to articulate my feelings pretty well today.
I don't know what to think. Do I really want to continue in this direction with MC? I do know that the only “c**kblocking” I’m doing now is H, and I think that will continue, I’m no where near ready to resume relations with him.
