I just bought a book on surviving d for men, and it paints the picture about as I see it.
Then look at a different picture. Get somes counsel from a L in your area. Learn the reality of it and come up with a plan to handle it. Money isn't the key to your happiness. Make a list of what you are grateful for. Go exercise, renew a hobby, pray, meet knew people, call old HS buddies, play with the dog, or do something nice for someone else.
Chose to thrive. This isn't going to kill you. Things will get better. Prepare yourself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually for any outcome. You can handle it.
Cheers
ps I started signing off with Cheers because it's hard to be down when you say Cheers to someone. Plus it makes me think off being in England and pub-crawling.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.