It makes me so incredibly sad to see it. His smile - so rare now - I don't every think really reaches his eyes. I recently came across a picture of him holding our newborn daughter and he had a surgical mask on but you could see the smile in his eyes. Now, nothing.
It is hard to pinpoint but I think as early as I can remember noticing something "different" was last summer - my BF remembers me telling her then he seemed a bit detached. So more than a year.
I really don't know when to say this "crisis" started. He had a QLC about 10 years ago and some of the same issues came up, but it was minor compared to this (oddly, looking back, I can see a bit of the same replay behaviors, just to a much lesser extent). So the thoughts have been there for years now.
