Today and yesterday she has actually opened up some communication with me. Still says she dont think we will be back together, but really wants to be friends. She said she would like to know more about how Ive changed(through much counseling.) She also says that she doesnt trust me, and that over time if Im genuine that may change. I asked her point blank that when I gain that trust back is there a chance for us? She said she didnt want to give me false hope, but wouldnt rule it out of the question.
My friends say she is freaked out and trying to butter me up to still use her lawyer. Since weve seen the social worker, Ive decided(and more importantly got the funds) to hire a lawyer of my own. I dont want to fight her. I want to stay close to her and not make her hate me... but I must fight for my daughter. I dont know if she is really trying to do this or not... she was friendly and took my calls for 2 days, when before she wouldnt speak to me. She even was talking to me before she knew I was gonna hire a lawyer. My friends keep telling me to keep my distance, dont trust, and dont let myself get hurt anymore. What to do? Now Im in the deliema of trying to get closer to her to rekindle a spark, meanwhile still divorcing and trying to not make situations worse by causing rifts with the D, but trying to maintain. Im so worried and confused.
