I understand. But now, I see my goal as doing what I can to make my next M (which I still want to be with my W) what my "1st" M should have been.
Thats a good way of thinking about it, your right what ever I did have is gone, dead and buried, if there is to be a reconciling (a long road as I suspect OW) it will be two new people reconciling.
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
