Have not been sleeping well the last couple of days and my head is not very clear. I feel like I just want to take a break from all this now.
W said to me that she's thinking about moving out because of all the ups and downs. My first thought was "good" but I just said "OK". She later said that she wanted to avoid that if at all possible. Again, I said "OK"
She rounded up the kids for a walk last night, then asked if I wanted to go, so I did. She talked with me the whole way, I guess I mostly listened, but it was light.
Later, we sat in the same room and watched TV. We talked a little then too. I told her about my frustrations with work, etc. Again, I didn't want to think so hard about "what to do" - someone suggested trying to open up to her more, but at the same time I know I need to detach. Confusing.
She did keep complaining last night about how her back was hurting, and that she was going to need to go to her massage therapist friend to work it out. I said nothing.
She also asked if I wanted to go to the zoo with her and the boys on Sunday. I agreed, but not sure if I should. She's going to visit her friend with the newborn Friday eve/Sat - yeah, it's legit.
She's still on FB with this guy. I've said my piece on this. This particular piece is in limbo now.
I don't feel very cohesive right now - just trying to focus on work, and I need to get some freaking sleep. SUpposed to have band practice tonight, but I think I might be too tired.
