A Little Epiphany - (and a newbie delurking)

[Dia]

...things are progressing along a positive path without games.

Thank you, Wifey!

I just wish I felt more certain of that part right now.

Anxiety is biting me today.

I don't want to be divorced. I want my husband back. I want OW out of the &^%$@#* picture. I want to make love to him again. I can't afford a place of my own on what I make. He really can't afford child support. Kidlet needs us together not just geographically, but as an intact, loving, committed family. I'm feeling *very* insecure about getting thrown out (this may be holdover from OM). etc. etc. etc.

And I can't let H get even a whiff of all that.

Oh, and I just found out that I can't file a dismissal on my own. We both have to sign it, and apparently CA doesn't have rules about dismissing for failure to progress. So my D paperwork is somewhere in the desert after being rejected back in late Jan., and I'm terrified that a judge will just finalize the whole thing and I'll be divorced against my will.

<looks back at that>

Oy! Gee, looks like I need to get a life, huh??