You know, my H also sees me happy. He doesn't say much, just seems to enjoy himself more when I am.

I understand what you mean about H finding you in the alt. It is sort of wierd. I never hid anything and now I feel like just to live I have to hide stuff. Only because you just don't know what might bite you in the butt so to speak.

I too worry, mostly about S anymore, but we all can survive and thrive.


"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox