Honey, there is one word to describe your R right now - Toxic. This is very toxic to your mind, your body, your emotions and your sense of self-worth.
Of course he would project everything on you. He is so dead wrong. Morality aside, you tried the swinging in hopes it would save your M. You knew there were problems to begin with.
You have been gas-lighted by this man for years. Look it up. He has been abusive and your very first thought should be to save yourself and your children.
I highly agree about writing out your story and feelings for the MC. Let him show himself for what he is. Trained counselors can see these narcissistic, abusive men a mile away.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
