Hi Hope,
Just wanted to check in and say hello. Only thing you can do here is come out of this a better person either way. You sound a lot stronger than you think. Thanks for posting to me awhile back, I remember what you said about lying in bed and crying for a few days and then letting the reality of it hitting you and that you will be OK. My situation has gotten to that stage where H is really pushing for D/signing papers, and I do't think there's anything I can do to convince. I think my M is over. It's really hard, as you know, but all we can do is survive, carry on, and try to better ourselves in the process.

Take care of yourself, most of all.
-hhh