Later in the day X tried calling and left message asking if she "could talk to me in the next week or so for about an hour, nothing big and no big deal". Then on way home got a text "Just want to talk to u. If u dont want to just say so. I am sorry for everything"
I was like oh man, reply or not. I thought about what I should say and I dont ever text X but I felt I should so I replied with "Would like to but at this point prob not a great idea. Prob wouldnt like my outlook on things and the things I would say."
X replied "Thats ok. Thanks for responding. Wish u would hear me out but I understand". 30 minutes later i get "How do u even know what I was going to say though?" Took a while cause I was showering up so said "I dont but with that one email I have a pretty good idea" and that was that for now. Dont think this is a dead issue yet, but thinking she wants to tell me first hand what she had wrote in the email. And if I am correct in my thinking also, after seeing how D was acting at soccer, it hit her once again what impact the kids have taken.
JMO though. I want to talk to X but then again I know somebodys emotions are going to be affected. I dont think X will get bent out of shape, just sad. Me on the other hand, I believe it will just frustrate me after we get done and will be hurt again, something i havent been for a lone while. I know anything is possible if you put your mind to it, but I just dont know what to think about all of this.
