Can't thank you enough for all of your support and thanks for saying I should stay. Some days I just feel like giving up but I know that is normal going through all of this but I do know that God doesn't want me to so I just try to keep that in my head.
Red,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It was one of the nicest things anyone has done for me during this terrible time that I'm going through. Not only here but also outside of this site. I know my H is depressed and I just keep hanging in there hoping he will get help and come to his senses but I don't know what to think or when that will ever happen. H is 35, so I guess that is the age for MLC but he didn't buy anything and as far as I know there is no OW. As a matter of fact he only pays his rent.
He doesn't pay any of his own bills (charges etc.), it's like he doesn't care about anything. He also gave truck back to the bank and still owes over 4 thousand. They repossessed his other car.
But everyone hold onto your hats. He actually wrote our D12 and asked if she had a game yet (she cheers for football). Now in her last letter she told him when her first game was, but I guess like Red said, you are in a fog. So anyway he writes how much he loves and misses her and asks if she has a cell and if she does could she write back and give her # to him so he can call her since he knows that she always wanted one when she turns 13. Why won't he just give her his new cell # and she can call him from where ever? None of this makes sense. And when he called me about my S18 he blocked his # 2 weeks ago. He acts like I would be harassing him or something, which I never did. Don't get any of it. Now everyone remember he moved 5 minutes away from his father and step-mother in May and now is telling D12 in the letter that he had to move and gave her new address. Which now he is about 15 min. away from them and only 10 min. away from us.
No reason why he had to move just told her he had to move and the new place was ok. He makes plenty of money so that's not the reason either, as a matter of fact the place where he moved is more expensive and less room. In this letter he sounded very depressed even told D that if she didn't want to write back he would understand. So I don't know if he is blaming himself and thinking I don't want him back now because of my S trying to take his own life or what.
So her first game is this Sat. so she wanted to hurry and write him back and let him know hoping that he will come to her game. She also put in her letter about my S saying that he wishes he would call or write to him too God Bless Her.
I can't thank all of you for your support. It means so much to me because I was really really down this weekend and the past couple of days and now I feel better knowing I have all of you.
