In my current dark state it feels like the only answer is to call W's bluff. Put D on the table and get this thing moving in one direction or the other. Seems like my fears and emotions are getting the best of me, maybe causing all of the negativity and pessimism. I feel like I've lost the ability to see things through her eyes, be compassionate, etc. Not sure. In my current state I don't have the strength to sit back and watch her (figuratively) with OM. A month ago I was compassionate and forgiving and thought I could.
Seeing C this morning after missing a few weeks. Feeling down and not very hopeful. Hope to make today a turnaround day or at least a get a plan day.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
