Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I thought the numbness from early last week would have worn off by now. It hasn't really.

She's still in my house. No more talk of leaving. No talk of staying. The uneasiness that was there between us before I said I accept that she is moving out seems to be gone. No more coming into my room or touching, but not anger either.

I'm really starting to question what I want now. I am truly sorry for my role in this, but do I want to be with a woman who treats me like she has? Should I see this as a terrible time that if we work through there is a great marriage waiting on the other side?

If nothing else, it helps me understand how she has gotten to her place a little better.