Fightingquite irish, just catching up with you. And not caught up with all of you either as I didn`t get to read all your posts.
Just so sorry you`re feeling so stuck, stuck with H, your money worries, kid worries and your mother worries.
I know that place too well.
Best thing I did is get a therapist for ME! yeah, H is MLC crazy guy but I had to sort out my craziness too. And yup, family of origin stuff, why we chose the guys we chose and the effects of the Crazy Dance in MLC territory all come into it.
But mostly, I learnt to love me. Yeah!
And to stay calm.
You rock, girl. You`ve gotta pull your head out of you h`s space to do that.
Watch him try to bait you back to that place he`s familiar with...
Watch him pull your strings and laugh cos you won`t be at the end of them.
Stick your fingers in your ears and tell em Naw, you don`t want to hear crazy stuff.But listen if he calms down.
Play your cards close to your chest. Listen, don`t agree, just show you`re listening and then buzz off and have more fun.
Go learn to hug YOU and love YOU and you`ll be an even better Momma to your kids.
Pull your head out of your Mother`s space while your at it.
Have fun any which way you can.
Keep venting here.
It can save your M or at least lead you to a calmer place from which to separate if that`s what is needed.
