Interesting, Cat. Hindsight tells me H was in MLC mode pre affair. That was April 07 so you`re at least a year ahead of me. Not that it matters; this thing varied so much from one sitch to the nextt
Haven`t had time to investigate the alt fully, though I believe I have a presence there in our group.Don`t want to risk H finding me there and can`t log on at work but am looking forward to meeting up there.
H came back early from his golf trip yesterday. Didn`t engage with the kids at all-well, at the most said two words to the younger two. Just went up to my room to watch TV and then ring an old buddy of his from long ago(yup, back to his single days)I think he was trying to tell me he has friends too and he ccan spend an hour on the phone. I feel like telling him, hey for you that`s an annual event and anyway, your friend does most of talking.
But of course I didn`t.
At least he`s not angry and not being deliberatelely silent either. Today that is.
i can see in your story Cat-the ongoing depression, moods, anger and silence,-so much of our own story.
DBing has helped me react so much more calmly. Finally I am ok and am not-usually-reactive to his moods.
I`m trying not to cover my feelings from me though. I love to put on a brave face to the world but when I meditate now I let myself dip into the well of sadness before sinking into the well of calm.Keeping in touch with my heart is really helping me love better at this time.
How do you help yourself through this angry phase?
DBing, ironically, seems to have made H angrier. Have you found that? As if he really wants me to suffer too cos of course I`m to blame for how he`s feeling.
