Alone, Lost, Unloved & Deserve Better

[Livingalone101]

I will check out that book - anything that will help me learn and become a better person would be great.

I have 2 counselors I am going to, both great. Next week I am starting a Divorce care group at church. I think I finally have a job so I guess I am starting to move the right direction. I do want to be happy myself.

waiting for H to come and talk to me about assets and what to do with the house is going to send me over the edge, he keeps changing his mind about coming and now he is playing games with the thought of bringing his Bitch friend to meet us all- the thought of seeing them together will just kill me - I hope he finds his brain before attempting such a stupid stunt.

I was hoping in the beginning (1 month back) that he wouldnt file for a divorce right away and it would give him time to change his mind and now I am going to be ok if he does - yeah it will devistate me to see the papers, but I have friends and family to help me through. I am thinking now that maybe this is all best because I know I do not deserve to be treated like this and I am a great person inside and maybe someday down the road after I have healed and fixed myself, there will be someone that loves me and will not give up on me like my husband did.

I truely believe I will be ok, it's how I get to that place that scares me really bad.
Thanks for listening. Can I ask what part of washington you live? I am in vancouver