No obsessing, no analyzing. I guess it just really sunk in how much garbage there is to this MLC. The letter just proved to me how sick he really is. I have no doubt in my mind now that he is going through a crisis. I will no longer wonder when he is gone, or late getting home if he is with ow. She can have this one. I want the healthy one back. I will stay STRONG as there is a PEACE that surrounds me now. My coworkers have even noticed it. I don't know if I mentioned it before, but I read this letter at home by myself. Then I went to my Christian friends house afterwards. She said she was hoping I would read it on my own. That I needed to face my Giant. She didn't want to tell me that she felt if I did this alone it would show her how strong I really was. My gut feeling all along, was that it would not be good. That's why I kept putting it off. She laughed while I was reading it to her. She doesn't even know much about MLC, but she knew it was a projection letter. A blah,blah,blah.
I will continue to be his friend. That's all I can do at this point. I would really love to be the W again to my H. Hopefully the mothership will bring him back soon. (sigh)
