okay, on the last post about you walking by his house etc.

we know he's messed up. he's going to accuse you because he doesn't want to look like the bad guy. when he acts like that, just let him, and leave him.

I do think he wants his family, but he's an addict. until he fixes that problem, he can't fix anything else. perhaps God allowed this new thing to happen so that you can get a grip again. I also believe he hates himself and that's another part of his problems.

when people can't love themselves and respect themselves, they can't love or respect other people. people only hurt others, when they are hurting themselves. I do believe he is hurting, but he's doing it to himself. hopefully someday he will figure that out.

hang in there, stop obsessing with him, and start focusing on your life, and baby's life.

Me 33 H 34 S9 S3
M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs)
EA/PA 1/2006
DB 5/2006
H wants D 6/2006
H wants ME 8/2006
H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006
H erased OW off phone! 2/2007

"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."