Just like Constantinople...

[notgoinggently]

well i finally got her to answer my messages:
(quick backstory is that I recieved the divorce papers last night and was kind of blind sided by this because we havent spoken in 2 weeks due to me trying to go dark and give her space. I would have expected her to contact me and tell me herself what her decision was.) So I left her a message last night and she never called back. I waited until after lunch today and sent her a text message, she finally answered back. Here is how the conversation went...

I asked her "can we at least talk?"

response "ok"

ME "so what happened over the weekend?"

HER "nothing happened over the weekend"

ME "so what made you decide?"

HER "I just finally made a decision. U kept telling me i needed to figure it out"

ME "Dont try to put this on me. This is NOT what I want at ALL. I want to work things out."

HER "I'm not putting it on you, I just dont have the want to work on things like you do."

ME "so i guess we need to find your 'want' then."

HER "there is not one to find"

ME "So what do you want?"

HER "to end things" (this one hurt!)

ME "Completely and forever you want me out of your life?"

HER "U know this is hard for me but I dont want to be married"

ME "So do you want me out of your life completely then?"

HER "If thats the way you want to make it"

ME "I dont want it like that, I want my wife."

ME(again) " I want my best friend"

HER "we have not been that for a long time"

ME "That doesnt mean we cant be again"

And thats it...she hasnt replied since then and its been about an hour since her last text. I am so sad but this conversation gives me hope for some reason...CP, LonelyWolf, am I clutching at straws or is there a glimmer of hope there. I am looking at the part where she cant bring herself to say that she wants me out of her life completely because I dont think she wants
that at all but again, maybe I am reading way to far into it...

Please comment and let me know what you guys think about it, I can use any help right now because I am falling apart quickly down here in Texas! Thanks guys!!!