I think I'm at the end of my rope. Reading other situations, particularly AFWAW's, makes me think it's time for me to move on. There will be no reconciliation any time soon. I've got to concentrate on my life. I've been here before, and don't you know it, when my W got the vibe that I was going away, she started pursuing me, and we took a step toward each other. I should have held firm much longer. I've got to embrace the reality that she needs to move substantially from where she is for her to be an adequate partner for me. She's not going to move while she's getting so much of my attention and emotional support. The question is what she'll do if she stops getting it.
Yesterday we had to go talk with the principal about my daughter's class situation. We had reservations about the teacher they selected for her, and we were going to have to be united and resolute to convery our concerns. My W arrived after I did, and she wanted to discuss our strategy before we went in. We came to agreement on what we'd say. While we were talking to the office assistant, my W was unconciously wrapping and unwrapping her purse strap around her keys in her hand. Although she had her game face on, her hands showed me how nervous she was. I reached over, took her hand, and pulled it away from her other hand. She looked at me and I gave her a reassuring look. She said thanks and her hands calmed down. I saw she was scared, and I offered some of my strength to her. I don't know how much more loving I can be than that.
We went in to say our peace, and I took the lead. We made our points, the principal heard our concerns and said she'd see what she could do. Afterwards, we walked out into the parking lot. We had an awkward moment where I could tell she was trying to figure out how to say goodbye. I made a move to walk away, and she said "I'm glad we can still be a team." I just said "Yeah" and I walked away, and didn't look back. I was on the verge of tears. I can't continue like this, so at that moment I decided it was time for me to let go and move on.
