Not sure if this is MLC but...

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These kids sleep like pros...

I've been more religious about taking the AD's since that blowup, and there haven't been any since, and he's been particularly nice to me. He actually said I looked pretty the other day. I've avoided R talks for the most part, but during a texting conversation the other day I told him that I've told those who know about our situation to not call the outcome until the end of the game.

Sometimes I wonder if he knows he's made a mistake by moving out but doesn't know the way back in. I'm doing absolutely nothing to encourage him in either direction (I'm really completely terrified to open back up - I don't think that would happen for a long time - but I see him starting to be more the H I know...) It seems like we have two choices - reconciliation or mutually-assured destruction.

Stronger was talking on her thread about being at the place where she is fine with either outcome - and I'm at that place BUT adamantly against 50/50 custody of the kids. I could live without H just fine, but I can't live with seeing my girls half the time.

And of course, I have a feeling that my mom is spreading my business amongst the family, which was bound to happen eventually, but now she wants to interject her opinion and what she would do. I just tell her - I am doing what I think is best for the kids. The best outcome for the kids is the best outcome for me. Best outcome is reconciliation, best outcome in case of D is I get full custody.

And a random thing I've noticed - at one point when I heard certain songs I'd always have to change the station. Any love song... Any Kings of Leon song (he started listening to them a lot when we were having troubles). Now I can listen to them and sing along.

And, I'm pretty sure there have been no OW in the situation, before the bomb or since. Have had some confirmation that he was always telling the truth about who he was hanging out with. Just needing excessive amounts of "guy time".