I could have been one of those women a few years ago. That is why it was so easy for me to say what I said. Because I was living here, just going through the motions because I had spent years talking. Of course, I don't know if I would have done anything about it. Maybe if H's stuff hadn't been triggered, maybe I would be in a totally different place now, not as healed, not as self aware, I don't know. I just know H started acting differently way before the bomb. I knew that I had to just keep going. I knew that I just was living this life that maybe could someday be different. Different how? I had no clue. So when the second bomb came, for me, it triggered first a whole bunch of anger, but then a sense of relief that it was all finally over, for a while. Then I started to really do the work on me. I had no choice cuz I was my own sort of mess. Now I see it all so differently.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
