living with the turtle

[cat04]

I remember RCR. She is not from so long ago. Although time is relative I guess.

I will have to look it up.

Mach, I know this is not about me. I know this is about him. I just wish he knew it wasn't about me. Because I am done being the scapegoat for the world. I have severed ties with much of my own family over the years for that very reason. I look in the mirror and I know I am a good person, sure I have made mistakes, who hasn't? My life has been full of people just putting it all on my shoulders as to how what I did caused their behavior. So I don't know if that makes me feel any better about all of it. I don't know if it really matters. I am tired today. I think the weekend is finally hitting me. I just don't really care today if this is about him, me, or the man in the moon.

Anger is returning with H. Snide comment this morning to make me feel really stupid. I'm not stupid. At least not according to the IQ test I had as a kid. More like almost genius. Not that it makes any difference here.