Just want my H back

[Deep]

More often than I care to remember during the bad times hhh, more often than I care to remember.

Although my W never did file or walk out (though we both talked enough of doing it), the best case scenario at one point seemed like W would stay on for the kids and we would try to be friends, and I would live with a W who gave up her true love out of a sense of duty, but whose love will always be for another. I'm not saying either path is easy, but I felt then (and still do now) that that's harder than walking away and moving on.

I hope you continue to be here for a while longer - if nothing else, you will find support and advice in the months ahead, which won't be easy on you whichever way it swings.