The adventure chronicles

[AFWAW]

She said that I didn't treat her son my SS well--BS. I've thought about this for a long, long time. Funny thing is, he's been contacting me and not her--weird how she thought that discipline and teaching my son to do the right thing can be misconstrued by her to do what she wants. I'm not saying I was a perfect parent though-don't believe for a second that I don't have regrets about things I've said and done.

Another thing she mentioned was that I never gave her any attention. This was partially true. I did give her attention but it was not as much as she wanted or needed apparently. We got caught up in a rut and took each other for granted.

Now that I look back at it after having cut communication with her and thinking more logically it just appears that these were normal marriage/communication problems that could have been easily addressed. Instead, she used them as reasons to justify her actions--sleeping with multiple men, falling in love with one of them, leaving me the day after I got back from Iraq, leaving her daughter, risking her career(adultry is a crime in the military as is fraternization), not speaking to her parents anymore or mine and on and on and on. And the lies, oh there were so many lies.

I couldn't respond to her any way that mattered to her. I apologized and told her that I was willing to work on the future but that there was nothing that I could do about the past. She simply told me that she was unwilling to forgive it--yet another way to justify her behavior.

Sure seems like she's willing to let it go now!

It sure does but for some reason I'm not in a celebratory mood. I know exactly how she feels(at least I think I do). The thing about it is, I don't think I can take her back at this point. I don't want her to suffer but I don't want me to suffer either. It was only a matter of time before this happened--she had to have known. Maybe if I had tried this before--but then again, I wasn't ready to go out and have fun and do what I wanted to do. Each person on here will do things in their own time and my time is now. We've been seperated for over a year now--remember I spent 6 months in Iraq and she has been living out of my house for 7 months now. I know I'm rambling here but it feels good to get my thoughts out where people who are objective can look at them and provide feedback. I think that things are too far gone to fix and I've given about all I can and don't think that I want to try anymore with this woman when there are other women out there that won't do this to me.

Long answer, huh?