Just want my H back

[Deep]

I'm so sorry to hear about this hhh. It's a lot for you to take. I think, like others have posted, take the time out, and spend it being good to yourself and recharging your mental batteries.

Take a look around this forum, many WASs pressed the D button, but it's not always the end of the road. While you should not hold onto false hopes, keep to your principles. DB for your own sake, and see if it creates any change in your sitch even as you may have to walk the D route.