Just got a text from X. "Could we eat and talk soon? No big deal?"
Had soccer for D lastnight and X was there and D's attention span wasnt there more than half the practice. She just has never been into doing things we other kids, likes to be her own independent self. D kept running around then was excited mommy was there and this and that. Thinking the X wants to reiterate how not so fun this is now again bout seeing the kids and how there lives have been split. Dont know.
I do know, well as of Monday, X is still with OM. Well at least we passed them going to my uncles house and he was driving the car I paid for! lol Just gotta laugh about it. Last friday X called and wasnt running a fever so I let her get kids after school and let them stay with her. Got son back Sat morning so he could go out of town and fishing with Grandpa (my dad) and his cousin who is the same age. They had a blast. It worked out good cause I was racing Sat night so I let X keep D again and got her Sunday before noon.
I dont really want to talk to X cause I know I shouldnt be the way I do but I just dont want to deal with her but at the same time I feel angry at her but dont let it show. I only deal with X when I have to. Its not like she is a bi**h towards me at all anymore, its like I know how she can be and guess I am still healing although its been a long time, about a year since I have shed any tears over her.
I dont really want to reply to her, but on the same token I probably should. I just cant deal with somebody like this. I dont know, confused as always.
I would like to sit down I tell X some of the things that have gone thru my head about her, but I dont think she wants to hear it and dont want to see her get upset and deal with that.
