Rough night last night and this morning I just want it over.
My d18 texts me at work "why are you and mom getting a divorce, she won't tell me". I called daughter and she said mom was mad at her and wouldn't talk to her. So...I called wife to see what was up. She didn't pick up phone and I could feel something was up. So, I left work a little early and came home.
I checked on both kids and then checked on wife who was outside. We talked for a few minutes and I decided to take RobX advice and apologize then. I had a feeling it might be the last time we talk for a while.
I then realized wife was very drunk. As I mentioned once before she drinks when upset. She showed me that she had tried to cut her wrists. It was not a real attempt, but obviously a concern. There was a full bottle of sleeping pills in the house, so had she been serious she had a way.
Long story short, she left again to go to a friends house. This friend has been great for her. They work together and her friend had to send another co-worker to get my wife since she was unable to drive.
One important thing - my wife actually said "I hate you" to me. Odd - but it was good to hear her finally say it. For her sake, she needs to release some of her anger.
I talked to kids briefly, took a couple of sleeping pills and slept through the night. I am off work today and I am going to stay busy around the house.
Seeing my wife all messed up made me feel sorry for her, but it also made me not want to be around her and actually relieved when she left. There is a lesson in that - confident, calm, people are more attractive.
I think it's time for me to cut off all contact at this time. Under dbing principles is that right? I could use the break from all the drama.
At this moment, I am not sure I want to bust this divorce, but that could just be today. Advice on what to do now?????
