I've come back from town - bought a suit which is nice but as I am in between sizes now, legs and arms are too long whilst body looks good! Needs some adjustment and a blouse/top underneath so that I can get the true picture. Will make a decision on the weekend as to whether it stays or goes back!
Feeling sick this afternoon. Don't know why but it's almost like I see this next contact as a make or break, which I know is silly. I am impatient and I know that this is not going to be the time when he says that he is coming back but I just need a sign that this is worth fighting for right now. It's been so long with nothing.
Whilst I feel in control with H waiting on my answer of when to meet, I know that after the meeting I will be out of control and back to square one all over again. This is a hideous way to feel constantly.
OK - I'm off spider fighting ... they are getting the spray treatment this afternoon! I've had it with them rebuilding their webs as quickly as I can knock them down. The grass has also shot up overnight - seems that all my effort the other day is now wasted!
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
