Morning Rabbit These feelings come and go ... equally as we can feel elated, we can feel in the depths of despair and, in my experience, the lows last much longer than the highs!
The pain of what is happening manifests itself physically as well as emotionally and the whole stress process is exhausting. It's why we must do our best to get the most restorative sleep that we can possibly muster. Good bed time preparation is the key to this. A routine is a must. I have been making myself a milky Horlicks to take to bed and then I watch Corrie and Emmerdale every night!!
I am staying away from TV progs that I know will upset me - stuff H and I always watched together like Married With Children! Funnily enough, I can still watch Doc Martin - we visited that village when we were home last October and yet I get comfort out of 'being there'. It's odd how it works but you know what you are comfortable with and that which you are not. Eastenders would definitely be a no go for me as I hated that after 1986 in any case!!
So, how are you doing today. As I am writing this, it's twenty past two in the morning for you and I hope that you are managing to evade the nightmares that I had last night. They leave you feeling grotty for the day even if you can shake yourself out of it in the first few hours.
What are your plans for today? Gardening helps, I really find that and the bonus comes in seeing your efforts! I have a new sense of pride looking out of my windows these days!
Please try to gather some PMA from somewhere, let yesterday go and start afresh today. I know that feeling in the pit of your stomach is hard to ignore but we must use it to push us forward. OK - I shall check on you later.
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
