WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[spellfire]

Take the advice/hits here and keep on rolling on. You can handle it!

Keep that positive attitude up, direct it towards better DBing.

Hang in there man, you are doing good.

[sandi2]

Sandi - not quite sure how I messed up.

I was playful

Don't play...dumb a$$.

[confusedinpa]

Sandi - not quite sure how I messed up.

I was playful

Don't play...dumb a$$.

Ouch!..... As I dig myself out of the pile of 2x4's

Gotcha

I had a good day with the boys yesterday. We went to a fair with my boys and a couple of close friends. Boys had a blast driving bumper cars, watching the pig races and we finally saw an elephant! We went to 2 zoos and neither had one so they were humming about that. My 7 year old was really excited as he picked the winning pig in one of the races so he got a ribbon. Very cool!

I had the boys call her. I was worried as it took a while for her to answer but she answered this time. My 3 year old didn't want to talk to her. My 7 year old told her about the elephant show and his pig race ribbon. Then he said that was all he wanted to say so he said goodbye and hung up

This morning we go to sesame st place. It's going to be another long day!

[confusedinpa]

C - I couldnt find CI PA on FB.

If you type in Ci Pa in the search bar, then search, select "View all people results" should come up with about 73 results. Ci Pa is on the second to the last group that you will scroll to (at least that's what it was when I searched)

Let me know if you can find me that way

[confusedinpa]

Boy it was a long day. It was a ton of fun for the boys and I. We went with my cousin and his wife and kids. My 3 year old was very clingy to me as the water rides were a bit much for him. I could see it was bothering my 7 year old that he couldn't get much time with me. I had my cousin's wife to watch my 3 year old so I could spend time with my 7 year old. My 3 year old put up a fuss, and it was hard, but I thought it was important to spend time with both boys.

When we got done, we didn't get home and to bed till an hour past their normal bed time. Even then, my 3 year old fought going to bed, as he was falling asleep watching a show.

It was a little tough today seeing my cousin with his wife and family, as well as all the other intact families together. I did get a little down as I reflected on all the lies and lack of remorse. I broke out of it quickly though as I am really trying to take a break from the emotional hurt that I have been feeling.

I had the boys call her. My 3 year old didn't want to talk again. My 7 year old was pretty brief as he hung up after just talking 2 minutes.

When I put my boys to bed, my 7 year old said his favorite part of the day was when he and I went on a couple of water slides together, without his brother. He second favorite was one of the rides the 3 of went on. I am so glad I made the time to spend some quality one on one time with him.

It really reminds me of the quote of focusing on remembering the moments, not the things......

[MrBond]

Good job at not contacting her. What you're going through in terms of seeing other families is very natural. You'll soon break out of that and you'll see the light shining through again.

Keep taking care of business.

Praying for you man.

[confusedinpa]

I got really annoyed today. She called while I was playing baseball with the boys. I had the boys answer but she asked to talk to me. She asked about taking the boys next Sun. I told her that I will not only see the boys one day. She went on about how she was trying to work with me. I stopped her and said that I am playing baseball with my boys. If she wants to talk it will have to be later. I could see my boys were getting upset as they were watching me.

She said she had to let her girl friend know about going over. I told her that I'm trying to enjoy my time with the boys right now so I can't talk right now.

I said take care and hung up

I can't believe she is following the crap of working with me.....

[confusedinpa]

Just journaling

Sunday was a fun day at the beach with my boys and my cousin and his family. They had been asking about going to the beach all year so they were very excited to go.

Unfortunately the weather didn't cooperate as it was windy to the point it was a sand storm. My boys had to wear their swimming goggles just to play in the sand.

The kids still had fun though. I had a down moment as the last time we went to the beach, it was the 4 of us in CT. The weather didn't cooperate then either as it was too cold. I do remember her complaining somewhat, but she didn't "enjoy" the moment like I did this trip. Looking at my cousin and his wife, they fight, and disagree, but they do enjoy their moments together. This is what a "healthy" couple looks like. Irony is my boy's mother would comment about how they wouldn't make it since they argue so much.

Craziness.

After we got back from the beach, we went to my aunt's house so the kids to play and we could sit down for dinner. It was nice with all the kids running around and trying to get everyone to sit down and eat. Reminded me of the times when I was growing up and we had almost a dozen cousins running around almost every weekend for family dinner.

We were watching fireworks when she called. My 7 year old picked up and said that we were watching fireworks and couldn't talk.

We didn't get home till after midnite, but my 3 year old still woke up at 6:30 on Monday. We made breakfast together and then proceeded to clean out the truck from all the sand. We of course played some baseball after that. She had called the first time asking about the pictures for my 3 year old's class and my 7 year old's summer show and tel thing that he needed for the first day of school. I just told her I took care of it already. She thanked me and I hung up. Then during baseball she called about wanting next Sunday (I vented about that in the previous post)

It really bothered me that it annoyed me for the rest of the day. I couldn't shake it. Stronger tried to help me pull it back together though, so I really appreciated that.

She showed up about 30 minutes late to pick up the boys. I was a little annoyed about that as I still had a 3 hour drive back to NY to make. I was glad to have some extra time with my boys.

My friends were there for support again (the retired married couple that were both divorced and met each other 3 months later). I handed her their bags as well as a bag of clothes I had bought them for school. Then she gave me some school forms that she wanted me to sign. I just took them and said I would take a look at them.

I walked the boys out and buckled them into her SUV and gave them hugs and kisses. Both of the boys were exhausted.

I turned to go back in when she asked about the form. I told her that I will review them and sign it. She said she needed to turn them in on Tues. I told her that I'll take a look at them, but asked her to please get them to me earlier so I would have time to review them as I did not want to sign things without reading them. She said that she just got them. I didn't answer, I just turned to walk inside to review them.

When I got out, I gave the boys extra hugs and kisses and wished them well for the first day of school and said that I couldn't wait to skype so I could hear all about it.

I went back inside and got ready to head to NY.

[confusedinpa]

I'm just shaking my head again. So much for her "intention" of working with me with honesty and respect - her reply to my email about conduct around the kids (a cut a paste of my email).

She had text me last nite and called me again at 7:30 AM this morning asking if she could have the boys on Sunday for a couple of hours. I told her that I couldn't talk as I was running off to a meeting.

Fortunately Stronger came to my rescue again and helped me wordsmith some stuff, asking her what did she have planned with the boys. She never responded.

My buddy called me up shortly afterwards asking if the boys were coming to Sunday's b'day party for his son. I told him that I hadn't heard about it. He said his wife just called him saying that she told that I wasn't letting my boys' mother know what was going on - basically being difficult again. He said that I was welcome to come and didn't really care who came with boys as long as the boys were able to come. I just told him that I didn't know about the party, but I know my boys would love to come so we will see them on Sunday. I sent him and his wife an email as confirmation that we will attend as well as an apology for not getting back to them as I just found out.

I also sent an email to the boy's mother (aka WAW) that I had talked to my buddy and told him that we would be attending and will see her there.

This is just a brutal reminder of how she has been spreading half truths and lies this past year. Basically blaming me on all the "bad" stuff.

Of course I never got a reply from her. Guess I should be glad.

[Tomato]

hi cipa

just catching up a little with your escapades.

Be well & be blessed.

T