I went to sleep with his arms around me, snuggled up close, weird feeling as he has not done that in like 4-5 months.
Here is my problem now.
I expect that possibly today, the frighted deer will pull back a bit, I am ready for that and so I did not make any fuss or do any kind of pursuing or R talk this morning as I don't want to contribute to any pull back. He did give me a lingering kiss before he left.
The other thing is am I right in not bringing up any R talk and leaving it totally to him to now initiate any further talks. As I said I wasn't expecting this and am so not prepared, haven't had a chance to finish the DR book yet.
Also I found and I don't know if anyone else has found this but when he kissed me, I have always got that rush of excitement through my body, but this time nothing.
I do still love him dearly and with every bone in my body but I am wondering if detaching etc has something to do with this feeling I am hoping it does or is just that I have taken so much rejection from him, that the mind switches off to kind of protection mode so you don't get hurt again. This has really confused me.
All in all a very interesting night and I imagine some interesting days ahead.
But I tell you last night was the best GAL activity I have done so far.
