I hope you're able to begin dreaming a bit of what shape you would like your post-divorce life to take. In the face of the regular barrage your wife throws at you, seems like it would be nice to begin considering the light at the end of the tunnel.
I grieve for her a bit Frank, I know it's terrible to say. With all the damage she keeps trying to do to you, it's seems an odd thought. But I'm pretty sure that she has no idea of the pain she's going to experience in the not too distant future. In a way it's kind of like watching someone self-destruct - it's just sad.
You on the other hand, and your wonderful children, well, you both have a new kind of life to build. There will be new experiences together, and they will be free of the influence of your wife and her darkness. Your days with the kids will finally be your days, and she won't be able to mess with them. Your new home will be YOUR home, and she won't be creating bad memories there.
And of course you know that eventually, one day down the road, you will begin to reach out to others. Someone will come in to your life and you'll have that familiar sensation of things clicking just right.
Till then it's survival, right? How much more could she do that she hasn't already done? I hate it for you, and I hate it for your kids. At the same time I am so incredibly glad that you've taken all this time to dig deeply into yourself and have emerged as a man and father who is more than up to the task of helping your children find their way.
Sorry I don't ever seem to be available when you call. I'd love to catch up with you sometime. Now that school and football are back in, the days are long. I am still here however and still following right along beside you.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
