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[RedSoxFan]

Being on the internet, it is very easy to formulate what YOU say happened and why versus what really happened and why you did what you did this morning..

Are you being honest with yourself? It sure looks like just another back door attempt to push, pursue and control on your part...

The things that I say happened, really happened. No question they are important. But I should have resisted the urge to say anything until I had a plan. I think my emotions got the better of me and I used the kid thing as a way in to start bashing W. I am very unhappy about the kids stuff and I am torn about what to let go and what to bring up.

I am amazed at my own weakness here. I feel like I'm swimming up stream and the current is increasing. I feel like anger and darkness are creeping in. I am having a hard time sitting back while W is with this other person. I think I'm losing hope rapidly, I'm conceding defeat and its turning into anger and resentment. All bad stuff.

I need to find a way to recover from this a.m. I need to somehow apologize in a smart way. But I don't as of yet even fully understand what happened and I still feel that I'm right about a lot of this stuff.