Just journaling

Sunday was a fun day at the beach with my boys and my cousin and his family. They had been asking about going to the beach all year so they were very excited to go.

Unfortunately the weather didn't cooperate as it was windy to the point it was a sand storm. My boys had to wear their swimming goggles just to play in the sand.

The kids still had fun though. I had a down moment as the last time we went to the beach, it was the 4 of us in CT. The weather didn't cooperate then either as it was too cold. I do remember her complaining somewhat, but she didn't "enjoy" the moment like I did this trip. Looking at my cousin and his wife, they fight, and disagree, but they do enjoy their moments together. This is what a "healthy" couple looks like. Irony is my boy's mother would comment about how they wouldn't make it since they argue so much.

Craziness.

After we got back from the beach, we went to my aunt's house so the kids to play and we could sit down for dinner. It was nice with all the kids running around and trying to get everyone to sit down and eat. Reminded me of the times when I was growing up and we had almost a dozen cousins running around almost every weekend for family dinner.

We were watching fireworks when she called. My 7 year old picked up and said that we were watching fireworks and couldn't talk.

We didn't get home till after midnite, but my 3 year old still woke up at 6:30 on Monday. We made breakfast together and then proceeded to clean out the truck from all the sand. We of course played some baseball after that. She had called the first time asking about the pictures for my 3 year old's class and my 7 year old's summer show and tel thing that he needed for the first day of school. I just told her I took care of it already. She thanked me and I hung up. Then during baseball she called about wanting next Sunday (I vented about that in the previous post)

It really bothered me that it annoyed me for the rest of the day. I couldn't shake it. Stronger tried to help me pull it back together though, so I really appreciated that.

She showed up about 30 minutes late to pick up the boys. I was a little annoyed about that as I still had a 3 hour drive back to NY to make. I was glad to have some extra time with my boys.

My friends were there for support again (the retired married couple that were both divorced and met each other 3 months later). I handed her their bags as well as a bag of clothes I had bought them for school. Then she gave me some school forms that she wanted me to sign. I just took them and said I would take a look at them.

I walked the boys out and buckled them into her SUV and gave them hugs and kisses. Both of the boys were exhausted.

I turned to go back in when she asked about the form. I told her that I will review them and sign it. She said she needed to turn them in on Tues. I told her that I'll take a look at them, but asked her to please get them to me earlier so I would have time to review them as I did not want to sign things without reading them. She said that she just got them. I didn't answer, I just turned to walk inside to review them.

When I got out, I gave the boys extra hugs and kisses and wished them well for the first day of school and said that I couldn't wait to skype so I could hear all about it.

I went back inside and got ready to head to NY.


Me 41
WAW 36
S 3&7
M 10 yrs
W files D 1/9/09
W moves out 4/18
Lost job 6/15
New job 7/27
Disc PA 8/10 (started Nov 2008!)
Confronted 8/11
Admits PA & appologies for hurt 9/11
Lost Job 11/13