I don't recall if I have ever posted to you, but I am in much the same place you are I think. I have done well at letting my H go with love and wished him well, and things are quite "amicable"...... yet the hurt is still very much there and it doesn't make sense AT ALL!
I hate the feeling of being so "helpless"....... I mean of course we can only control ourselves, but..... I don't know.....I guess it's just so hard to believe that the H's we knew and loved for so many years just vanished!!
Anyway, I have no words of wisdom......just of understanding and sympathy.
Take care.
((((((hugs))))))
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd