Thanks for your note and your encouragement. I have't been on here too much the past week - just lurking a bit.
I am trying to stay away from R talk - nothing like that has come up for a long time now. He hasn't even hinted anything about moving out for probably at least three months or more, and I ignored it back then, too.
Today was a bad day but overall not so bad most of the time. You're right and I have turned that corner (for the most part) where I do feel that I am the one with the control now, that he is lucky to have me (and not the other way around - most definitely not now!!!), and that it will be my choice if he ever returns to earth to accept him back. The limbo is hard though.
I am tackling some major organization/decluttering projects that I have wanted to do for years now. That is how I keep busy and get my mind off things. I have spent the past few months working on me internally and purging the bad and now I am trying to carry that out on my external surroundings. I am tired of clutter and disorganization that comes from years of being too busy working, chasing small children around, etc. But now it is a priority and things are starting to look good!! It feels great.
