I just realized, how the heck could I possibly compete even DB'ing with what she is looking at?

She wants to end our marriage, has me as the blaming point for it, and in doing so will.

- Be single, to pursue anything and anyone she wants.
- Get a bagfull of cash from me every week in child support, which I know will only go to continue her hair coloring, waxes, etc, etc.

How the heck can I compete with that? Why did I not look at that in this context before? She sits smugly on the couch every night, and I wondered why?

M: 41
STBXW: 41
D: 9
Bomb: 4/26/09

On board the D train now..

"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."