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Hey GIMA,

I think I had a pretty decent weekend, even with the kids spending the majority of it with their mother at her parent’s lake place. I was able to get in three rounds of golf, planted more flowers in newly purchased planters, worked out at the gym, shopped around for new golf clubs, painted a bathroom wall, cleaned carpets, and watched a lot of football. I’m keeping myself occupied as much as possible. I forgot that I actually enjoy spending time by myself.

The W and kids returned home early this afternoon. I spent the afternoon playing with the kids…they also helped me water all of our new flowers. I then took my son to the driving range to hit some golf balls. While we were at the golf course, my son mentioned that he and mommy wore the same shirts at the Gator game. You see, I purchased matching blue Gator t-shirts for my W and kids earlier in the week so they could all match and look cute at the football game. My son and I wore matching baseball jerseys for a MLB game earlier in the summer and he got a kick out of it. So I thought my W would enjoy my gesture of kindness as well. It was for her and the kids. My W didn’t even thank me when I gave her the t-shirts and I actually thought she threw her shirt in the garbage. Nope…she wore it! Little positive steps maybe? I trying to work on the LL.

This evening my W and I cooked dinner together. Our conversation at dinner mainly involved the kids and the Gators. She was more talkative today than usual, but she had no interest about me…maybe in time.

Anyways, I’m feeling pretty strong emotionally coming out of this weekend. It’s a short week for us b/c kids and I are flying to my hometown on Friday and we’re staying through Monday. This is our NFL weekend. I also have a 20th high school reunion coming up this Saturday…I’m not sure if I going yet…it going to be a last second decision.

-LFH