MW, this is hard stuff you are dealing with, really hard. You are going to have some good days and some bad days for a long time to come.
I always say I wish I could help speed this up for everyone. But the truth of it is, its important that you go through all of it. If you skip any part of the journey, you dont reap all of the rewards.
I can tell you honestly that I would not have wanted to miss out on this opportunity of self growth. Wish I could have learned it all in an easier way, but, it wouldnt have been nearly as effective.
Oh yeah, and the pants thing - well, nuff said - LOL!