wow! my thread is alive, lol, I am a mega lurker here now. Hugs to you ps)))))))) it's been so long! Well, I am now another casualty of the bad economy, was laid off late July, asides from the fact that I was loosing my bread/butter it hurt so much to say bye to my friends of 8 years. I cried so hard that day, lol, I told myself I wouldnt but the moment I went into each office to say bye I lost it. Was like a tiny D, loosing that familiarity and assurance I had everyday.
But God has been taking care of me. I got some severance and I found someone who is renting a room downstairs, so that helps a lot! There are not many jobs I can apply to, I am taking some classes online next week because 99% of the employers want web design experience and the core of my experience is printed media, I need to update my skills.
Kids doing great, I got to have them during the day for half the summer, so that was awesome. X is still X, I txt most times & try not to talk to him over the phone and in person, it has paid off, I dont' feel a thing when I see him, his, jeez, w still out of state so no drama as of now, but I do know there will be lots of incidents when she comes back on December with her 2 kids... I just pray hard for my children, they are my focus and I know it will be something else to get used to living with her kids, so I put them in God's hands daily.
Overall I'm doing great, I'm keeping busy, I don't get as melancholic as I used to, don't notice couples/families with sadness as I used to (ok, maybe 1%, he he) My family cleaned up my laundry room which x took over with his junk and never cleaned it when he left, if feels so good to see that area totally changed, freshly painted and none of his junk reminding me of him. I have a new life and I will make a conscious efford of enjoying what I do have everyday.
I will shut up now with this quote from a mom who's 2nd and 3rd sons where born with an extensive cranial/facial deformity "I do not have the pefect family I imagened I would have, but it is the perfect family I needed."
I've outgrowed him.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
