The adventure chronicles

[AFWAW]

Thanks guys. Well, she called me again and I didn't know who it was--she was using her work cell. She blubbered and cried and carried on. Told me she was "COMING HOME" right now and there was nothing I could do to stop her. I told her calmly not to go down this road with me and do something else she would regret. She wanted to know, why I didn't want her home. I gave the standard answer of I don't know how I feel. Why aren't you talking to me anymore? I told her at some point I needed to protect myself emotionally. Who is this person you're talking to. Just a friend. Well I'm NOT going to let another woman steal my man.--I had to fight the urge to laugh out loud at this. I said, you've got a lot of nerve saying that after all you've put me thru. I asked you nicely to leave me alone, now I'm telling you to do so.

She went on and on and on about how stupid she was and how she missed me and how she missed my D and about how great I was and how she admired me. And then again, with the, can I please come home? I told her I was not comfortable with that and I don't know how I feel and then more crying--I tried to get off the phone several times--she wouldn't let me--she'd start wailing.

UGH--ok, I still don't want her back at this point. I mean really. I don't deserve this. My daughter does not deserve this. I don't think I would have any respect for myself if I did take her back. I think she is still trying to control me and I think she would still try to control me if she did come back. This conversation is the exact reason I did not want or do not want to talk to her.